Just the first week, and I'm already reminiscing

whenever the new school year arrives, i always feel a certain kind of rush. probably the same one I get during the New Year. I really don't know how to explain it. Maybe it's the thought of getting new professors to gossip about, new subjects to complain about, new classmates to befriend, new books to stare blankly at, and even a new schedule to enjoy (or not, if that's your case) gives me a rush of adrenalin. for me, the new school year's has the same benefit you get from the new year: SELF REINVENTION. so far what i did was to cut my hair short, well relative to my super long hair before, and a rejuvenated mindset about the school year. you know how during the school year, you always set a goal to get an A in ALL your subjects and say, "this time, DL na talaga." and most cases, that mindset falters either before midterms or after the midterms. haha. well, my mindset's exactly the above plus the effort to keep it up the whole semester. ride or die. well, good luck to me. hahaha.

so the first week's been pretty good. i love my schedule! Tuesdays and Thursdays from 9-6 with a 3-hour break from 12-3, Wednesdays from 8:30-10:30, and Mondays and Fridays off! the only weak link is my Saturday class from 9-12. Goodbye Friday night outs for me! although, that's not so bad.. more rest for me. my professors aren't well known to be fun or to be generous graders but it's better for me to suck it up and treat it as a great opportunity for me to mature as an individual, yes? so this first week, it was the first time for me not to see my blockmates and the Core everyday. first time i won't be waking up at 5:30 in the morning for 7:30 classes. first time i won't be taking my number coded car on a monday. first time im taking multimedia lessons. first time i have actual french classmates (wohoo! let's put my french to good use). first time to visit Magic 89.9 with Je (catch her there! she's a junior jock). first time to bum on a friday, saturday and sunday! suh-weet!

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the first week in school, back from summer's been pretty generous to me. although i wouldn't know how to describe my personal life. this is the part where i would say, the first week is always the hardest. oh here i go again with the drama (which is most likely nonexistent). first week back from summer, i had to get used to being alone again. from boracay with friends, straight to the East Coast with my family and boyfriend, and the remaining weeks of my summer vacation spent back here in Manila with my American boy (well, by citizenship), you'd see i was very much accompanied. actually, having my boyfriend here 2 weeks ago made my being alone now more evident. i was so used to having him around for 3 weeks, and now it sucks to go back to my normal ways of shopping alone, being the third wheel, etc. oh, the pitfalls of being in a long distance relationship!

then again, it's not as bad as i make it sound. but i guess the tiny percentage of loneliness i feel influenced me to reinvent even just a small part of myself. depression much? haha. no. really. believe me when i say my summer couldn't have been any more perfect than it already was. 9 months++ we've been apart, and even though we only spent 3 weeks with each other, i'm still thankful. undeniably, i've witnessed how there are just certain things a chat in YM or a conversation in Skype can't give you. joking around, seeing mannerisms and expressions, and hanging out with friends are just some of the things mentioned above. i guess, that's what makes parting harder than it already is.

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now all i need is just to bury my head in books, engross myself with golf, busy myself with movies and music, and hopefully get to hangout with the barkada often. after all, the first week's already done. time to get on with life.

oh and time to get that pretty pink dress i saw in Zara just today. haha. shopping = anti-depressants. lol.

til the next blog, do expect more. :) au revoir, mes amies!

My memoirs of the CSA Cheering Competition '06

so i was cleaning my room, like majorly. the clutter (everything that i don't use) is now stored away safely in the attic. i finally now have room to breathe in my room. i think i can hear my clothes thanking me for the extra space too. haha. so anyway, i came across my memorabilia from CSA, especially during senior year. flooding my senses was nostalgia, not so much of sadness because high school has ended but more of happiness in knowing that I have no regrets because I lived out my years in CSA to the fullest.

so i saw this fragile brown paper. I thought it must be some handout mistakenly stored with the things. As i peeked closer, the paper turned out to be a copy of the CHEERS in Senior year. This walk down memory lane is so random, but I can't help it. Of course, one would never forget something that means a lot to him. This in particular, meant a lot for me since i could say for certain i worked my ass off for it. being the president was such a tough job that I would have broken down if not for Je, Marg, Bon, Niki, Gel, Sangki, Joe (Senior Council) and other people who extremely helped us out of their own will and goodness (you know who you are!). Not forgetting my lovable batchmates, of course. I praise them for being cooperative, being patient (for the the times i have snapped) and having the heart to go all out in the competition.

Anyway, I still remember how I shifted from making some of our junior cheers to making Pinoy Senior cheers. haha. that Toyang cheer and Tong Tong Tong was so fun but at the same time frustrating to create! I remember making them during Economics, CLE and Math. (i guess that explains my just average aptitude in calculus eh?) Back in junior year, i used my math notebook to make formations for the cheerleaders. (being captain was a geometric suicide too!!! haha) but in 4th year, my math notebook wasn't just filled with cheerleader stuff, but every aspect in the comp. i am still amazed at myself how i managed to sleep at night. hahaha.

without further ado, the Seniors: Proud to be Pinoy! cheers. :)

I.Mula Apari...
Hanggang Jolo..
Sigaw ng SENIORS.. PINOY AKO!(2x)
SENIORS!!! (4x)

II. (by Gel Camins and Kams Del Rosario)
Sa silangan... ay isang dakot na araw
Sa paa ng bundok ang kanyang kasaysayan...
Ugat ng panahon Himaymay ng panaginip...
Isang bahaghari...
Mula sa timo, mula sa kanluran, mula sa hilaga, mula sa silangan
Doon sa landas ng bituin at buwan
Ang sikat ng araw sa dakong silangan
Ay gumigising sa pusong kabataan
Iisa an himig na hinihiyaw, iisa ang landas na tinatahak sa araw
Iisa ang diwa na sinisigaw..
OH SENIORS!!! PROUD TO BE PINOY!

III. Eat Bulaga (wohoo! 4th grade memories! alterations by Marg Espinosa)
Nung Freshman year kami'y army pa
Nang Second year ay nagging India
Third year naman walang tumalo...
Junior Navy... champions 'to!
Ngayo'y kami mga SENIORS na
PagkaPinoy ang pinapakita
Walang tatalo sa sariling atin
SENRIOS...PINOY... Magagaling!

IV. (a now our favorite congga beat)
Te te tetehete (percussions) (2x)
Tumba tumba tumba uno
tumba tumba tumba dos
tumba tumba tumba tres
tumba sila, tumbay kayo! (2x)

Te te tetehete (percussions) (2x)

V. (i listened to Eraserheads' Toyang for like 20 times for this! hahaha)
Seniors kami simple lamang
Pero pero pero magalng rin kami
pag magkakasama
Pinoy kami simple lamang
Pero pero pero malupit rin kami
At magkapamilya
Pen pen pen de sara pen
De kutsilyo de almasin
How how how de carabao
Kami'y Seniors di magagalaw

VI. THE transition cheer (council for the alterations... and the eternal...)
S-E-S-E-N-S-E-N-I-O-R-S!
Go Seniors! (Clap 3x)
Go Seniors! (Clap 3x) (2x)
Sa wa lo pat
Kami ay walang katapat
Ma nim to lo
Kami ay lagin panalo!
S-E-S-E-N-S-E-N-I-O-R-S!
Go Seniors! (Clap 3x)
Go Seniors! (Clap 3x) (2x)

VII. (by pep squad)
We are the Seniors seniors seniors (2x)
Red and white, our colors flying high
We're all fired up, ready to win this fight
Turn up the heat to set your eyes on fire
Hey freshies, sophies, juniors
You can't beat the... Seniors! (2x)

VIII. 7 Nation Army (freshie memories!)
(Beat)... Go!
(Beat)... Seniors!
(Beat)... Fight!
(Beat)... Seniors!

IX. the eternal CSA CHEERS and YELLS!!! (i tried to sing this while playing a round of golf the other time.. haha. i still remember! actually, i still remember every CSA song and cheer there is! hahaha.)

X. Coke (another 4th grade rip off! haha.. what can we do? that was our victory year too!)
Palaging maaraw, palaging masaya
Basta't kaming Seniors, ang iyong kasama!
(doodoodoodoot..)

XI. Bongga Seniors! (ron gomez and pep squad for this one! haha!)
Hala! hala! hala! hala! ahhh! (2x)
Bongga Seniors! Bongga Seniors!
Sige lang sumigaw.. itaas ang kulay! (2x)
Hala! hala! hala! hala! Ahhh! (2x)

(Palibhasa Lalaki)
lumamlabas ang aming Seniority!
lalo na kung kailangan niyo kami
asaha niyo.. hindi kami pumapalya!

Bongga seniors! bongga seniors!
sige lang sumigaw.. saludo seniors!

XII. who rocks the house!
Seniors rock the house!
when the seniors rock the house
they go all the way down!

XIII. (batch favorite kulit cheer with the matching exaggerated shoulders! haha.. i remember making this in my junior year. :) but the sounds, goes to the band!)
We are the seniors,
The Seniors, we'll beat you up!
(tan tanan tan tan tan) (2x)
We hold the banner, the banner of Red and White
(tan tanan tan tan tan) (2x)
We are so proven so proven to be so tough!
Feel the heat, ready or not!
Seniors let's go, win, fight!

XIV. Transition S-E-N cheer!

XV. Tong tong tong cheer medley (i love this!! ron and gel helped me with the junior and senior part!)
Tong tong tong tong
Eto nang freshies, Mga bata at mga bago
Tara na, Sama na, Para tayo'y masaya!

(lion king coz the 1st years ha a jungle theme diba?)
Awimbawep! (4x)
In the jungle, the mighty jungle
the freshies cheer with might (2x)
Awimbawep! (4x)

Tong tong tong tong
Eto nang Sophies, Sumisigla at lumalakas
Tara na, Sama na, Para tayo'y masaya!

(Hercules coz 2nd year was Greek)
Everybody shout out loud, the sophies cheer
Everybody scream and shout, the Sophies are here!

Tong tong tong tong
Eto nang Juniors, Tumatanda at kumukulit
Tara na, sama na, Para tayo'y masaya!

(chanting coz the Juniors were Trescantadia! ;P)
Zuma laka zuma laka zoom zoom zoom (2x)
Juniors Trescantadia laka zoom zoom zoom (2x) (2x)

Tong tong tong tong
Eto nang Seniors, Magaganda at mga guapo
Kailanaman di mahuhuli, sapagkat Pinoy kami!

(Pinoy ako! by orange and lemons! hahaha! Ron's idea! saya namin!)
Seniors kami, pinoy tayo..
ipakita sa mundo, kung ano ang kaya mo
ibang iba ang Pinoy.. wag kang matatakot
ipagmalaki mo..
Seniors kami, pinoy tayo..

XVI. Eat Bulaga (credits to Marg again!:) )
Mula noong una hanggang sa huli
Kaming mga Seniors nagsasabi
Maraming salamat sa CSA
Mahal naming.. All the way!
Kahit na kami ay paalis na
Sa aming puso ay walang iba
Salamat, paalam, hanggang sa muli
Sa CSA... tapat kami!


XVII. Rektikano (borrowed from DLSU. like omg! i can't believe it! haha! kidding. :p i still remember the native bilaos here. hahaha.we had such a hard time teaching this! whew!)
Rektikano, keena keena! (2x)
Rektikano rektikano rektikano rah! (2x)
Seez boom bah! (2x)
Boom rah boom rah boom rah rah! (2x)
Seniors seniors seniors rah! (2x)

XVIII. ABS CBN finale!!! (can i just say.. that was the BEST! :D)

there you have it... the cheers that made my batch the 3rd back 2 back champs in CSA history (2nd was my Kuya Euric's.. hmm.. coincidental?) haha! wohoo! it's just so nice to remember all of those things. like how Ms. Barts suggested the theme Proud to be Pinoy... how we had to go ALL the way to the Department of Tourism to borrow the posters of different tourist spots... how i always bought tuna puff for lunch because it was the fastest to eat for the council meetings we had during lunch... how i coordinated with each committee head with the band, cheerleaders, lifters, PnD and the 4th year teachers, how the council had to paint those red bilaos in Bon's house in one holiday and smelled like we were addicted to paint... how Ron and I always talked about the squad... how Wana always told me to just be cheerleading captain with her again (hahaha! Wanina talaga!) and how i helped her choreograph in one cheer... how my voice was next to nothing but i still managed to say: "inihahandog namin sa inyo, ang lahing Pilipino"... how I convinced Joe and ian to be Si Malakas at Si Maganda and wear flesh tights... how i helped Joe paint the famous Seniors Mask... how i had to fight the tears back when time was running out and there were only 2 classes worth of people who came for one batch practice... how at the next batch assembly I broke down and cried in front of the batch and gave out one of the best i've ever given out and then later received opposite reactions, like i wasn't supposed to do that coz i have to show i'm strong and they're glad i did that because it was heartfelt and motivating... how the at the next practice, almost all came (yipee! :D)... how at one time, i snapped badly at a couple of boys for being so rowdy and disrespectful (hopefully they've forgiven me already)... how i received a comment that i should quit being a Booster because i wouldn't be able to handle both being the president and a Booster... how Mrs. Dejillas almost gave me a BR for allowing the batch to wear slippers on cheering day (haha! my bad!)... how it was my first time to feel like a datu-ess by riding the man lifted kawayan... how i felt so insecure that i don't have my batchmates respect because i'm a girl (as what was said to me, boys don't succumb to girls and neither do girls.. as opposed to if the leader was male, boys will treat him with respect and girls will succumb to him) and I'm not Ron... how i asked my dad to donate scrap boxes from our factory.. how i saw my brother and his barkada supporting me in the audience... how i brought pancit and water for the set up night... how lucky i felt that my batchmates ARE my batchmates.. how i felt blessed to have Je, Bon, Marg, Joe, Gel, Niki, Ron and the 4th year teachers by my side... how sad it was to lose Sangki to his motherland (love you Sangks!)... how even though the council got frustrated with one another at times, we still chose to remain solid... how i felt so nervous the same way we won Best Cheerleaders in junior year.. how it felt so good to receive trophy after trophy for being the best bleacher design, best band, best cheerleaders, best squad, and of course for the Overall Champion.

this recollection might seem pathetic to some who don't cherish their high school days.. or some might even thing this is so egoistic of me to remember it this way. heck, it's my memory anyway.. i just wanted to log it in, and make sure i'll never forget it. my sweat, tears, joy and laughter were all in this memory. this was an experience worth remembering because i could firmly say that at that moment, i believed in myself and most especially in others. there lies the greater value of this whole (sorry for the cliché) roller coaster ride of an adventure.

i believe that it is for the best we remember great memories once in a while. after all, the great memories we have are the only ones reminding us to go on with our lives and live like a legend for we strive to make more or even greater ones. if not those... then what?

the recovery

so i guess i was very emotional with my report of my camera's loss a few hours ago. well, you can't blame me. but after a few, no, actually, a lot of comforting words from my friends, (i especially was struck by Oli's reminder that all material things are ephemeral, as said in The Little Prince -- thanks Oli!) i began to calm down and go back to the optimism that I usually employ. so i start thinking of ways how the hell I am going to buy that Canon Ixus again. i haven't really gotten to figure that out. so we'll see.

but in general, i'm actually getting over the loss. well, getting there. i just try to think that yes, all things are indeed ephemeral and that these things we own now won't be in our possession 10 years from now. i also think about that I still have it better than others, for one, because I only lost a camera, a luxury item, while others lost their homes over a freak fire somewhere in Pasay, and for another, i'm still lucky enough to even HAVE a camera to begin with.

Nevertheless, i'm still quite bummed about losing my camera which is like 2nd nature to me. who wouldn't be right? i just have to treat this as an ultimate lesson learned. i will make sure that this will be the last expensive loss i will ever have. haha. that's too much of a donation to the less fortunate. haha.

and since it is Christmas Eve, it's now time to focus on how material things aren't the things that i should really be giving importance to. There's always God, love, family and friends who i could count on not to be passing, but always present and eternal.

there. i just had to let it out before Christmas actually comes.

Merry Christmas everyone. :)

losing sucks!!!

so another tale of my series of unfortunate events premiered last night.

i lost my baby... not my boyfriend. duh. but my CAMERA!!!

oh my golly golly golly gosh.

i was in the club with my friends and having the time of my life being able to drink lots and lots without having to worry about driving home after, right? and 1 hour before i have to leave, i discovered that my beloved camera's not in my purse anymore! i tried and tried and tried to look for it on the dance floor. tried and tried and tried to ask the waiters and bouncers to check for the cam. it's either i really did drop it, or somebody just friggin' stole it from me. oh crappity crap. maybe it's a sign that i shouldn't really be too attached to pictures anymore. right.

i hate it.

i hate how idiotic i must be to lose, YET AGAIN, a very expensive possession of mine.

i hate how i trust, in excess, the people around me.

i hate how people do not have a conscience when it comes to taking other people's property. especially if it means the whole world to them.

i hate how i can say that i have now completed checking off all the personal expensive things to lose list. shades, bag, cellphone, wallet. camera? check! crap.

i hate how i can't tell my parents coz i'm sure they would freak out on me. heck, my louis vuitton wallet was just stolen 3 months ago. argh.

i hate that i have to spend my christmas money to buy a completely identical camera.

i hate that i'm such a careless loser have i mentioned, idiot?

i hate that f*cker who stole it.

i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

yes, i'm full of angst. merry christmas to you too. :|

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Damn manila traffic!

funny how things don't go the way you plan them to be. no matter how much you plan your day to go as smoothly as possible, things just jump out from nowhere.

take for example my day today. 12 onwards was supposed to be faculty day so i only had one class today because my com teacher was nice enough to give us 11:30-12:30 off but my theo prof insisted on still having a class at 12:30-1:30. this is supposed to be prohibited in the student's magna carta, as my brother said. BUT NO. she has to be the evil one. and she teaches theo! how ironic.

anyway, woke up pretty early, about 7:30 am. exercised, ate breakfast, and i even reviewed a bit for my first theo quiz. i left the house exactly an hour before my class, like i usually do. everything was going fine til i reached pasig, and it was literally bumper to bumper! i thought traffic would go faster once i reached libis... boy i was so wrong. it was even slower! 1:00 i was still at the bridge of katipunan. when i was able to get a parking space, it was about 20 minutes to go til the theo class ends. i decided not to go to class anymore because for sure she was only going to get mad and scold me, like she did with my other blockmate the other day. i didn't wana risk it. i could always say i got sick from the rain yesterday.

but there, that was such a downer. and to think i really prepared for the quiz. i could've just played golf or just slept the whole day even! my gulay. i hated it.

good thing, the day turned out well. after my "visit" to ateneo, Da, Io, Nik and I went to eastwood. first we had snacks at fazzoli's and then watched Beowolf. the movie was cool but not that great as in, like 300's quality or anything. but hanging out with friends still made my day.

whatever. i'm still happy.

Except

So far so good.

Professors are kinda nice. Except for one very high strung theo prof. *meow!*

Schedule's fine. Except for that 3 hour break during t-th!

I'm doing great. Except that I just miss him.

So good. Except so far.